Forging An Attitude

I have had a rough couple of weeks and sometimes things going on in my life consume my thoughts to such a degree that writing them out and arranging them in an array feels like an incredibly daunting task. 

I have seriously considered hiring a housekeeper. It’s not that I am incapable of cleaning or doing simple chores, but there are other things in my life that trump the desire to get down and dirty on my bathtub every Sunday. 

I have missed being in shape for a while now and I have finally taken some control back of how I want to get back in to physical activity. One of the biggest strides I have made is finally learning how to swim, and I am excited for the day I can finally swim strong. I have a problem with my kicking but a couple of people have been helping out with it. 

Truthfully as the days go by, I find myself becoming more and more of an introvert. I have faced certain people recently who dont seem to be very receptive or friendly towards me, and their behavior has seriously led me to deep thought. If you know me personally on any level, most likely you think I am a social butterfly. The truth is, I only open up in environments that are friendly. 

In a way, you can say that when my surroundings are positive, I flourish in social settings. Owing to the fact that my friends or people that I hang out with are generally fun loving and warm hearted, I have never actually considered the possibility that I am very introverted. 

But I have realized that the person I am interacting with pretty much dictates the relationship that I have with them. This is scary because it makes me feel that somewhere I may be socially incompetent. However, I do know that I would much rather continue being that way then try and forge an attitude that does not come naturally to me. 


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